Well as many of you know we are planning on moving to Louisville, Kentucky for Brandon to start on his masters at the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary. He was planning on starting this fall, but due to some circumstances with his BA degree he is getting at Tennessee Temple University he will not be able to start until January. We are planning on moving there this summer (this weekend to be exact) to get settled, get job(s) before he started school. But as of right now, we can't find any apartments because they want you to have a job BEFORE you get there and the ones that don't care if you have a job just aren't good apartments according to reviews, things like shootings, murder, mold and fires just doesn't seem like a place we want to live ya know? So today I just kind of broke, its stressful not knowing where we are going to live and how we are going to make money and get good work schedules so that we don't have to put Morgan in a day care, I just hate the thought of that, I didn't have a baby for someone else to raise her, ya know? I know some people don't have any other choice but to put their kids in day care, and that's not bad it is just not something I want to do...at all.
Honestly, it scares me to death to move up there without any family and really not knowing to many people maybe a handful. Maybe that is what I need, maybe I need to get outta of my comfort zone and be stretched a little bit or maybe a lot. Maybe I need to learn how to depend on Christ's alone all over again. I learned that truth while in Argentina for a few months a couple years ago, it was hard truth to learn to tell you the truth, but after learning it God provided me an incredible friend (Sarah D'Attoma). But maybe I need to be reminded of that truth again. Maybe I am to dependent on people. I will admit it I think I am. I know I shouldn't be. But sometimes it is just so hard for me. I love being around people I love being near my family I love having them close to me. I love knowing that if I need anything they will be there in a heartbeat, I mean who wouldn't? But there is a difference between loving all that and NEEDING it, and I "NEED" it. What I NEED is to be totally reliant on my Savior and trust that He knows the best thing for us, because He does, and I know that, I just need to live it more then I do.
I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God will provide both jobs and a place to live and that I need to just trust Him. But that is hard sometimes. It is so easy to just get discouraged and say well maybe we just aren't suppose to go there, maybe these are shut doors, and yeah they could be. But we know that Louisville, Kentucky is where we need to be. I know that our God will take care of our every single need. I know God will protect us. I know there will be hard times, but I know that being where God wants you is FAR better then being anywhere else in the world.
So if you think about it say a prayer for us, as we continue to pray for open doors to get up there. Pray for jobs. Brandon has filled out several applications and I am hoping once we get there I can get something going with photography and maybe something else while I get that started if I need to. Please be praying for housing. It is hard to find a place to live from 12 hours away! Pray that I won't be stressed and discouraged. Pray for wisdom.
There are finally blogged...I will try to do this more often.
<3 Karla
I'm so proud of you baby! You're great! This was really encouraging to me. Thanks for being so willing to follow me where God is leading us, even when it's hard. I love you. :)
ReplyDeleteHey look, a blog! ;)
ReplyDelete1.) I love your title verse. It is absolutely one of my favorites...so so powerful.
2.) I feel for you here. I am so very people dependent, as well as so very easily frustrated about finding jobs and moving. Sometimes it is so difficult to really choose to live out the fulfillment which we say we find in Christ...
so I'll pray for you.
wow, sounds like you and me have alot of the same feelings Karla. I mean Tonya and I are moving to South Carolina for her school because that is where God is telling us to go, but I have so much anxiety about providing for my family. I have been praying alot and it is getting easier, but then again, doubts always creep back into my mind. I just really on God and He has been putting those fears and doubts to rest. Anyways, we will be praying for ya'll that everything goes as planned according to God's will. It will all work out for the best, and when you look back upon all the stress and struggles later in life, you will think "wow what was I even worried about, God has me in His hand and He ALWAYS provides"!
ReplyDeleteKarla, great blog. It was very encouraging to me. I too need to remember that God has a plan and it's a good one. And His plan is better than any plan I could make for myself. I know it's hard when you feel like everything is falling apart. Love you
ReplyDeleteHey! It's stressful, but as you said, you just have to keep giving it to God. He is waiting for HIS perfect timing to show you what He has in store. I remember when Mark & I were trying to decide about whether to leave WOL or not...Every day we prayed & prayed. I'll be praying for you that you find an apartment and that it's obvious when you need to GO. :) Enjoy your time right now with family...it's going to be hard to be away. Love you girl. Give that darling baby of yours a kiss for me. :)
ReplyDelete--Rachel